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Why does it hurt so much
Why can't I just let go
I know I wanted it
But it is gone now so
Why do I feel like this
The past is over now
Nothing more to be done
And no matter the how
Alway I mess things up
Maybe I try too hard
The more I try to fit
The more I come apart
Everything falls away
Living my surreal life
Like someone else is me
Separate from the strife
Doors slamming behind me
Life like a haunted house
Trapped in the howling dark
And yet I do not rouse
From this disquieting dream
That I must call my life
Crumbling all around me
Dancing to fates grim fife
Shoring against the waves
Despair eroding me
Failing again to save
That which was dear to me
... ... ...
Not living or dying
Not laughing or crying
and never revealing me
Just a lie the world can see
And thats all that I can be
No place now holds a lure
No draw - either profane or pure
Nothing calls nor calms my mind
Severed all that once did bind
Despair returns to stake it's claim
From spirit once it was denied
Now it has no need to tame
Spirit long since torn and tried

Faking my way through day and night
Living a lie for others' eyes
Pretending to that which I've no right
This pitiful life that I despise

Beyond the reach, within the dark
Past all that which others touch
Lies a blossom - of ebon stark
That few would recognize as such

Dark and brittle, bare of stem
Twining leaves and tendrils grasping
Stone of crimson, dark within
Facets sharp and edges rasping

'Gainst said ebon leaves of stone
T'would gleam if else there were but darkness-
But not a glimmer, gleam, or spark
Within this void of barren starkness

Ringing, calling through the dark
The song of crimson stone
Song of despair devoid of mark
That yet scars to the bone.

-It keens and cries alone.

Life Sux

Journal Entry: Wed Nov 12, 2014, 10:43 PM

And so does "family"

  • Mood: Hopeless
  • Listening to: Coup d etat - GD
  • Reading: nothing :'(
  • Watching: time pass
  • Playing: FFXIV
  • Eating: ramen
  • Drinking: water
from such depths of despair I crawl
not up, but further down
and blind to that they care not for
no one takes note, my frown
e'en ere they did, naught would become
for easy put to rest
are things that belong not to one
but are anothers test
indeed a fools task e'en to try
to bring one else to care
but fool am I, and yet ignored
I drown in my despair

more fool am I, naught can be done
for even I don't care
out of antidepressants, yay

Life Sux

Journal Entry: Wed Nov 12, 2014, 10:43 PM

And so does "family"

  • Mood: Hopeless
  • Listening to: Coup d etat - GD
  • Reading: nothing :'(
  • Watching: time pass
  • Playing: FFXIV
  • Eating: ramen
  • Drinking: water


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Artist | Student | Digital Art
United States
Got my Animation degree, on to Digital Media Design!

Hi, my name is Aj
I'm a Gothic Neo-Pagan
I like Kpop and Jrock esp Visual Kei
In my free time I make gifs & write dark poetry.

Fav quote: "This I think I have learned: where there is love, the form does not matter, and the gods are pleased. This I have observed: what occurs in nature, comes by the hand of nature, and if the gods did not approve, it would not be there" ~Mercedes Lackey from her book: Magic's Pawn

Current Residence: FFXIV server: Saronia ~ Ravn Wyng
Favourite genre of music: KPop & JRock (esp vis. kei)
MP3 player of choice: iPod touch
Personal Quote: Only a fool anticipates the unforseeable future.


Choosing Magic by Katoons88

This is the first time I've critiqued anything, so... I really liked the message here, it fits the image (or the image fits it) perfect...

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hey there! am dropping by here and I really like both EXO GIF that you did. :)
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LOVE AND KISSES!!!! Happy birthday! :heart: ^.^
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