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Why does it hurt so much
Why can't I just let go
I know I wanted it
But it is gone now so
Why do I feel like this
The past is over now
Nothing more to be done
And no matter the how
Alway I mess things up
Maybe I try too hard
The more I try to fit
The more I come apart
Everything falls away
Living my surreal life
Like someone else is me
Separate from the strife
Doors slamming behind me
Life like a haunted house
Trapped in the howling dark
And yet I do not rouse
From this disquieting dream
That I must call my life
Crumbling all around me
Dancing to fates grim fife
Shoring against the waves
Despair eroding me
Failing again to save
That which was dear to me
... ... ...
Not living or dying
Not laughing or crying
and never revealing me
Just a lie the world can see
And thats all that I can be
What is it to live,
What is life to existience?
When all you are is lies
And all that moves you anguish

What purpose - life of pain
And all that you fake with it
To seem to be the same
As those around you in it

Can life be something true
If life is but a lie
Cling desperately to such
As imposibly you die

Too slow to wither - fading
A life behind its masks
No one sees or cares
Consumed by their own tasks

A vision hard to hold
No reality to cling to
And yet it's all absurd
Nonsense and sadly untrue

Life so disconnected
Which is real- or not
How can one be sure
Of madness or true thought

All that remains is panic,
And anchor long stole away
None will notice, nor care
And so the real will fade.

In spiral bound this panic
Eight of swords paralyzed
No focus for mind- static
And by onself despised
What is real, who can be sure?
I do not see what you do
Perception lies, and so do words
Believing now as you do

For all we know, or so we think
The world obeys its rules
And so it does, but there's the jest
Our 'understanding' fools

Arrogance,  folly of man
And by such man shall fall
And topple those around him
While believing he stands tall
Why does it hurt so much
Why can't I just let go
I know I wanted it
But it is gone now so
Why do I feel like this
The past is over now
Nothing more to be done
And no matter the how
Alway I mess things up
Maybe I try too hard
The more I try to fit
The more I come apart
Everything falls away
Living my surreal life
Like someone else is me
Separate from the strife
Doors slamming behind me
Life like a haunted house
Trapped in the howling dark
And yet I do not rouse
From this disquieting dream
That I must call my life
Crumbling all around me
Dancing to fates grim fife
Shoring against the waves
Despair eroding me
Failing again to save
That which was dear to me
... ... ...
Not living or dying
Not laughing or crying
and never revealing me
Just a lie the world can see
And thats all that I can be

Life Sux

Journal Entry: Wed Nov 12, 2014, 10:43 PM


And so does "family"

  • Mood: Hopeless
  • Listening to: Coup d etat - GD
  • Reading: nothing :'(
  • Watching: time pass
  • Playing: FFXIV
  • Eating: ramen
  • Drinking: water

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Aj
Artist | Student | Digital Art
United States
Got my Animation degree, on to Digital Media Design!

Hi, my name is Aj
I'm a Gothic Neo-Pagan
I like Kpop and Jrock esp Visual Kei
In my free time I make gifs & write dark poetry.

Fav quote: "This I think I have learned: where there is love, the form does not matter, and the gods are pleased. This I have observed: what occurs in nature, comes by the hand of nature, and if the gods did not approve, it would not be there" ~Mercedes Lackey from her book: Magic's Pawn

Current Residence: FFXIV server: Saronia ~ Ravn Wyng
Favourite genre of music: KPop & JRock (esp vis. kei)
MP3 player of choice: iPod touch
Personal Quote: Only a fool anticipates the unforseeable future.
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Choosing Magic by Katoons88

This is the first time I've critiqued anything, so... I really liked the message here, it fits the image (or the image fits it) perfect...

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