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Trapped in the past that just won't die.
My thoughts circle round and breathe life into dead issues.
Let them die... just let them die...
But I can't and they won't.
They bring me pain.  They bring me low.
And failure is all I can be - much less see.
I can't escape, can't run away.
Trapped in the echoes of a single day.
My solace gone, as good as dead,
And none left now for comfort...
What is comfort anyway?
My life surreal, a lie, a joke...
Told by one uncaring,  the plot a farce.
Unheeded, unrefined, uneeded, undefined.
Unamusing, lost in translation.
Beyond the ken of explanation.
A waste of time, a waste of breath
Awaiting only the touch of death.
A dark drawn morbid declaration
Sorrow, weary, beyond temptation.
And still staggering, dragging on
Though wasted life beyond redemption
One task remains as yet unfinished
Though not by hands of man.
The sands of time shall end it.
And finally peace can follow.
Poetry of me.
A self portrait of introspection
Betrayal follows faith
Betrayal follows trust
Betrayal follows everything
And leaves it all as dust.

Do you see the world,
Or does the world view you?
Force on you an image,
Incomplete and untrue.

Useless to even try
For even as you do
Stronger grows the "knowledge"
That those betrayers view

Still, one sees it coming
If only they do seek
To view the world in color,
Not only in black ink

Inward we look, always
Even in aid of others
All to convince those watching
That those are our true colors.

So turn away, don't bother.
You only waste your time
You will never be truly seen
Even in your own mind
Why does it hurt so much
Why can't I just let go
I know I wanted it
But it is gone now so
Why do I feel like this
The past is over now
Nothing more to be done
And no matter the how
Alway I mess things up
Maybe I try too hard
The more I try to fit
The more I come apart
Everything falls away
Living my surreal life
Like someone else is me
Separate from the strife
Doors slamming behind me
Life like a haunted house
Trapped in the howling dark
And yet I do not rouse
From this disquieting dream
That I must call my life
Crumbling all around me
Dancing to fates grim fife
Shoring against the waves
Despair eroding me
Failing again to save
That which was dear to me
... ... ...
Not living or dying
Not laughing or crying
and never revealing me
Just a lie the world can see
And thats all that I can be

Life Sux

Journal Entry: Wed Nov 12, 2014, 10:43 PM

And so does "family"

  • Mood: Hopeless
  • Listening to: Coup d etat - GD
  • Reading: nothing :'(
  • Watching: time pass
  • Playing: FFXIV
  • Eating: ramen
  • Drinking: water


Artist | Student | Digital Art
United States
Got my Animation degree, on to Digital Media Design!

Hi, my name is Aj
I'm a Gothic Neo-Pagan
I like Kpop and Jrock esp Visual Kei
In my free time I make gifs & write dark poetry.

Fav quote: "This I think I have learned: where there is love, the form does not matter, and the gods are pleased. This I have observed: what occurs in nature, comes by the hand of nature, and if the gods did not approve, it would not be there" ~Mercedes Lackey from her book: Magic's Pawn

Current Residence: FFXIV server: Saronia ~ Ravn Wyng
Favourite genre of music: KPop & JRock (esp vis. kei)
MP3 player of choice: iPod touch
Personal Quote: Only a fool anticipates the unforseeable future.


Choosing Magic by Katoons88

This is the first time I've critiqued anything, so... I really liked the message here, it fits the image (or the image fits it) perfect...

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AyaAkuma Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2015  Hobbyist Photographer
aww thank you for the fave <3
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Happy birthday
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hey there! am dropping by here and I really like both EXO GIF that you did. :)
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LOVE AND KISSES!!!! Happy birthday! :heart: ^.^
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happy birthday ❤
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Thank you for adding my work to your favourites, it is really appreciated!
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happy birthday
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